i'm sorry darling, really sorry. maybe you won't blame me now, but you may, in the future. i can't help, but i really fear the arrival of that day. i'm sorry for landing you in such a state whr you can't sleep well. please, forgive me. i'm sorry for the tears you shed, and i swear, those tears that rolled down your face tore my heart badly into pieces. i sercretly hated myself. so much. at that instant, i did not think of reversing the time, but instead. i thought of chopping my bloody hands into pieces. really. i'm really sorry. its no one's fault. but mine. cos i did not have the resilience to say, NO. TAKE YOUR FUCKING HANDS OF ME.
you wouldn't know how hurtful it is when you say you have to learn to get use of the absense of me. and you wouldn't know how touched i was when you actually brought that zak bum to rub my bruise for me. never in my life would i even expect you to do that for me. that moment when you was rubbing my bruise so attentively, i swear to god. you melted my heart, and i know. i'm not goin to leave you. please, for i ask for, is for you to trust me that i won't leave you. and you will definitely do a good job in proving me right. you wouldn't know the reason for why i kept crying. it was cause, i know i'm wrong. the way you treat me with your ever tender loving care and for those tears you shed. that scene, kept flashing through my mind. and how i wish you could really be mine forever. its too early to say forever, but thats what i really wished for. poly's life not gonna affect my feeling towards you. cos for what we've been through together is nothing one can easily compare. trust me, once more, will you? i really want to go through whatever endeavours i shall encounter in the future tog with you. as well as face the challenges tog with you thats ahead of us. cos i know whatever may happen, you'll always be there for me. "Change is the only thing that's constant" but i know even if the sky were to fall, the earth to stop revolving, i know, my love for you shall be ever-changing. EVER-CHANGING? yes, it shall be. which is to love you more and more until, change isn't the constant anymore.
