I seriously have so many thoughts that are going through my mind like an endless chaotic riot.
I feel that life isn't simple, perhaps complicated.
I've been trying very hard to find time out for my own, but the hectic school days are stopping me from doing so.
And seriously, i don't know why but i find myself nowadays always drained with fatigue and more fatigue-ness.
My mood gets affected very very easily i swear.
To that extent, i can get very affected EVEN BY WATCHING A SERIAL DRAMA.
I can think of why are things going on like for like days such that i sleep for only 5 to 6 hours?
And during lectures, my mind gets switch back to that drama storyline.
And watching that show gets me to think, are guys on this earth really such an easy prey to woman who are feeling helpless?
Why do man at certain point of time somehow lost their ability in judging whats right and whats wrong.
Drunk isn't an excuse to everything.
Cos drunk doesn't knock you out of your senses such that you don't know whats happening ard you and that you lose control of yourself.
If thats the case, DON'T DRINK.
Don't shirk off all responsibilty and say GOODBYE after you somehow "regain consciousness" and claim that it was a misunderstanding after that.
Or perhaps, it was a mistake right from the beginning.

I'm beginning to feel tired about L.I.F.E.
As in, the real meaning to it.
Life is how you look at it and how you live it.
Live it to the fullest or not to.
Happy or sad? Its our choice.
Easy to say. But emotions are usually the things that overwhelm us isn't it?
And majority of the time is that emotions determines our behaviour.
L.I.F.E at different stages of life have different ways of living it.
For now, its obvious that we have to study hard and nothing else.
For what? For the sake of a bright future that brings us luxury.
Maybe 5 to 6 more years down the road, the working life sets in and the reason to why we live starts to change.
At that time, we will be working, slogging our guts out so that we'll have a good career, isn't it?
But the ultimate goal is still the same.
LUXURY isn't it?

GET A LIFE MAN, PEOPLE.

And now i understand, be contented with what we have instead of taking everything for granted and always asking for more.
Why not try taking mishaps that happen as blessing in disguise?

Wo zhen de lei le.
And all i ask for is someone who is willing to be there for me and not let me think even further.
I hope it isn't difficult.

You've been a really wonderful boyf, i love you honey.
No matter how nasty i can be to you, you nv fails to show me your oh-so-stupid smile.
I love you (:

Why do i have to hate you in the first place.
But i really hope that you would understand that hatred isn't built overnight.
And little did i know, that i've caused people ard to be affected as well.
All i can say is that, I'm sorry.
But i seriously cannot get myself to greet him even he's around in the house.
I seriously cannot be bothered with him.
Stop making a nuisance of yourself will you?

If only you would realise the importance you hold in my heart.
I love you honey.
Cos all the things you've done simply make me love you deeper each day.
Sorry for saying things to you that may be hurtful at times, but i'm really glad that you nv once put it to heart.
Thanks for tolerating everything for all these while and all i wanna say is,
I LOVE YOU.

Poof, another week had just passed (:
And i'll not deny about the amazing rate that it has went by like that.
With all the tests stacking after 1 another, our HAP and PIPC's tests are finally over.
We had our lessons as usual today but cause today's 4pm HAP tutorial was moved forward to ytd, and so we had an early release at 4 plus pm.
Went to TM to meet up with honey and the rest with Aikhui who was on her way to meet her boyf too :D
Chatted as usual on the way thr (:
Went for work at ard 6pm and yes, i just got home.
Why am i on my computer blogging?
Cos i'm waiting for honey to finish eating before we start our game of DOTA :D

Thanks honey, for buying the pads for me.
I love you.
I seriously didn't expect you to say yes so readily.
Thanks and sorry for causing you those unnecessary embarrassment ! =/

And today, i realise:

No one's a perfectionist.
Everybody are humans, and so we make mistakes.
Before condemning anyone else, we should reflect on whether, did we do well enough?
Or have we been long ago condemned by everyone?
Hatred gives rise to even more hatred which will eventually tires everyone out.
Fatigue.
Drained.
Is that all worthwhile?
Put ourselves in other people shoes and think, how are we actually portraying ourselves to people?
Are we looked at with tainted eyes or otherwise?
Why not just learn to put things down?

Reality are too penetrating
I can't even begin to express my hatred
Remove my true heart, write it into a diary
As if it were a silent film.


And secretly, i hope there isn't such a knot in our hearts that keeps us at a distance away =/

Poly's life is seriously not as expected - Slackness.
Slackness is TOTAL BULLSHIT.
You can find yourself mugging over subjects and more subjects over the weekends when you see others are out to play.
They love to give tests at total random-ness at the first 10 mins or last 10 mins of the lesson.
And they name it POP QUIZ.
I've got a total new outlook of poly life, which is HECTIC-NESS.
Well again, it hasn't been the 1st time i'm ranting over it but thats how much emphasis i wanted to bring it up to you guys.
And lets not assume that poly life have such days with going to school for 2 hours and so, and off BYE BYE you go.
That is so not true (i am referring to my course).
I have to reach school at 9a.m and ends them at either 5pm or 6pm on Monday, Thurs and Fri.
As for Tues and Wed, its slightly better as Tues, i get to go to school at 11am, and home at 5pm.
As for Wed, i get to reach school at 10am and ends at 6pm with all the lectures.
I'm beginning to fall deeply in love with Tuesday.
And i HATE HATE HATE Thurs and Fri ! $%#@#!!$%&*

HAHAHAHA! all right all right, enough of my rants.
I shall comment on what i've did today.
I only managed to revise my Human And Physiology of the later part of Cells And Tissues.
As for other subjects, i merely managed to breifly read through certain subjects and having the attempt to try understand them.
Understanding is certainly a skill that i'm lacking of.

I'm goin out to study later with that Noobass lady.
Hahahaha !
Its been pretty long ever since we last studied tog, apart from the MAHJONG SESSION.
Hees, and and, i'll be meeting honey later ! I so can't wait =/

Thanks for tolerating my nonsense at times when they can sometimes be very unreasonable.
You never failed to apologise which eventually melts my heart.
I'm sorry for not being able to put myself into your shoes to realise how much you missed me.
And finally,we've went through the different ups and downs in our life for the past 6 months and 2 days.
Thanks for being there whenever i need you.
Those times which were spent with you will nv been forgotten.
I love you baby.

Darling had been suntanning for this few weeks.
And he look some kind of, CHAO TA now =/
Today he went all the way down just to get the fabrics for me.
Thanks honey (:
And cos i missed him too much, i msged to ask if he can come down to fetch me home from sch.
Immediately, he agreed.
You simply made me realise the meaning of L.O.V.E.
And the reason to why you went suntanning was cos, you know i think tan guys are hot =/
Ohmy, you simply rawk.
You practically did almost everything you can in this world just to make me fall even deeper for you each day.
Despite it isn't the first days we are tog, the treatment you gave me not only did not change, but they got even better.
Gawd, i love you :D

I realised tat i have not been blogging for like quite long, and so i've decided to do so.
I've bought this pair of shoes online, and till now it still have not reached me.
To be frank, i'm seriously worried.
This isn't the first time i'm buying shoes from this blog owner.
Hence, i trust her integrity.
So i was browsing through other blogshops, i saw this black cardigan that caught my eye AGAIN.
Which this times round turns out to be more expensive than the shoes.
35.50 bucks.
Cos i simply love ittttttt, i've decided to purchase it (:
But of course this time round, i've choosen registered mail instead.
Cos its registered mail, it'll take longer days as compared to the normal postages.
So hope this long wait isn't gonna get my neck longer =/

Well, boyf's went to gym with that mouth retard this morning.
Know why he can't meet me?
COS I'M MEETING MY NEW LOVES FOR LUNCH !
Thanks for being so understanding sweet heart.
I simply love you more than anything else~

And its exactly 6 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes, 45 seconds more to our 6 month! =)






I ♥ Tan Xiao Xi